Month 2

18 Dec

Oliver,

Yesterday you turned two months old and you are still the sweetest little baby ever.  Of course I’m biased, but I swear you get more sweet and more loveable everyday.  Your second month has been a great one and it feels like we watch you change right before our eyes each day.  I feel like I really got the hang of this whole mom thing this month and our days together have settled into a happy little routine.

This month you started smiling at everyone and I can’t find words to explain how amazing it is.  Everyone who meets you is reduced to a baby talking, silly face making fool who is willing to do anything to coax a smile out of you.  And when it comes, that big gummy grin, well seriously, it is the Best Thing Ever.  It’s impossible to not fall in love with you.

Your other big milestone this month was moving from sleeping in a bassinet in our room to sleeping in your crib in your room.  I was worried about this transition, but you’ve just breezed right through it.  We were trying out your new mobile one night and when it was time for us to go to bed you were still asleep in your crib so we just left you there and haven’t looked back since.  I am sure this will be the first thing in a long list of things that are harder on me than they are on you.  Even though we’re both sleeping better, I worry and miss having you close by.  Your dad and I have moved from our room downstairs to the guest room upstairs which is next to your room.  It seems a little over the top, but I’ll do anything for a little extra peace of mind.

If I was obsessed with your poop (or lack there of) last month, this month my obsession has been your sleep.  I don’t really know how it became such a thing for me since you’ve always been a really good sleeper, but alas, here I am.  Even though things are going well, I feel like it could be going better so we’ve been trying different ways to help you nap better and sleep for longer stretches at night.  Of course nothing is consistently working so I’m going to add this to the growing list of lessons I’ve learned during my time as your mother:  you know what works for you and I need to be patient, not pushy.  I also need to step away from baby books about sleep and google, but I’m a work progress.

We’re getting ready for a big change as we head into next month.  I’ll be going back to work and you’ll be spending your days with a babysitter.  We found a really great sitter for you and I know you’ll be happy there and that she’s going to love you, but it’s still going to be completely different.  This whole time I’ve been telling myself that I’ll be ready to go back to work, but now that the day is getting closer and closer I’ve started dreading it.   Thinking about you spending your days with someone else makes me sad and thinking about the possibility of you missing me or needing me and me not being there, well it’s horrible.  I can only hope you’ll handle this transition as easily as you handled moving to your crib and that all the angst will be mine, not yours.

Oliver, you’re slowly making me realize that every cliché I’ve heard about motherhood is probably true.  You’re my heart beating outside my body.  I don’t remember what life was like before you came along.  I love you more than I could have ever imagined and I hope you know that whether I’m in the next room, or miles away, that’ll never change.

Love,

Mama

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3 Responses to “Month 2”

  1. lauren December 18, 2011 at 9:41 pm #

    Thor,
    Last weekend I came to visit you, your Mom & Dad. In the presence of your cuteness I was reduced to high-pitched baby talk…it’s even on video. When I made silly faces at you, you gave me a big smile and melted my heart. I’m so excited to watch you grow and be a part of your life. And listen patiently while your Mom talks about your poop, your sleep habits…and all the other things she’ll find to obsess about as you get older. 🙂
    Love,
    Lala or Auntie Lauren (we’re still not sure on the details).

  2. Operation Pink Herring December 18, 2011 at 10:30 pm #

    Yes. Yes yes yes.

    Hannah still refuses to even nap in her crib and I am secretly glad. I like her sleeping in our room (although I am worried about what we’re going to do when she grows out of her “bed”, which is a baby papasan chair). When I have tried to put her down for naps in tge crib and do other things around the house, it feels like a part of my body is missing. I miss her! When she is NAPPING IN THE NEXT ROOM. And this is after I spent the first month of her life convinced we’d made a huge mistake.

  3. audrey December 23, 2011 at 9:02 am #

    Oh, but he is so cute!

    Glad the crib transition went well. I’m going to leave it to our nanny to get Alexander to nap in his crib starting in January.

    Good luck going back to work. As the date draws nearer, I find I’m starting to look forward to being back at the office even if I’m really NOT looking forward to leaving the little man all day. I’m feeling less anxious about it than I was a week ago, though, which is good I guess.

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